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Most of my poems are in German. However, I don't really like German cause it just doesn't sound nice.
If you're a native english speaker and have comments about my tries, please, don't be too polite to
let me know.
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 Honest Questions
Can I ask you honestly,
Is this how it’s meant to be?
Are you happy with your life?
Was it worth to search and strive?
Did you have to quit your dreams?
Was it harder than it seems?
Did you stumble, did you fall?
Did you never doubt at all?
Did you take what you could get?
Is there something you regret?
Did you bend and did you break?
How much of your smile is fake?
Tell me what I need to hear,
Lie to me, and ease my fear,
Please don’t ask me how I feel,
That was not part of the deal.
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Outside Time
I don't believe in destiny,
And struggle with reality,
Amazing though that random choice,
Did lead me through the background noise.
Coincidence does leave us free,
To take it or to let it be,
When past and future left us here,
Outside of time, the laws were clear.
When you look back and trace your way,
Who would have thought that this one day,
Despite the whys, the ifs, and whens,
Coincidence made perfect sense.
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Thanx
I’ve been searching
For so long
In the dark
It all felt wrong,
I kept bumping
With my toes
Into walls
That were too close.
Many times
I changed my way
Just to find
I could not stay,
I was looking
For a guide
For a faintest
Shine or light.
It’s pathetic
But it seems
It took you
To find my dreams,
Someone who
Could help me see
Who I am
And want to be.
Someone who
Did understand
And who offered
Me his hand,
Who advised me
Not to fight it,
It’s my light
And I should light it.
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Fall
I had gotten tired, or maybe just old,
Had nowhere to go to and noone to hold,
For one carless moment, I loosened my grip,
I made a wrong step and time started to slip,
One careless moment, just one - that was all,
Time slipped away, and spring turned to fall.
I tried to stay focused and not to look down,
I could not stop thinking that I should have known,
That things far below me would drop out of sight,
And I could not tell what was wrong and what right,
One careless moment, I lost my connection,
Time slipped and left me without a direction.
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Cold
It has been worse, it has been better,
Just except maybe the weather,
Sunshine, blue sky, ev'ry day,
But I'm freezing anyway.
Desert heat but I am cold,
Caught between
Where we've been
Thanks for your life, may I put you on hold?
I guess, back then I tried to show,
What or to whom, I still don't know,
Now I'm trying far away,
And I'm freezing ev'ry day.
Desert heat but I am cold,
Just go on
Gone is gone
Please get wise but don't get old.
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I Told You
I told you not to ask me,
Told you I wouldn't stay,
I told you not to listen to
Whatever I would say.
I told you not to tell me,
I told you not to trust,
I told you not to follow me,
Because you would get lost.
I told you not to love me,
I told you not to care,
I told you I would hurt you
And wouldnt treat you fair.
I told you not to miss me,
I told you to go on,
I told you not to look for me
When I would have been gone.
I told you but you smiled,
You wouldnt want to see,
So I left you alone
And took your smile with me.
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Transit Only
Just another city, just another day,
Just another drive thru, no time left to stay.
Just another hotel, just another bar,
Even things that look too close never were that far.
Different people, many names,
Different stories, silly games,
Different rooms and different guys,
Small talk and some polite lies,
Many drinks and loneley nights,
Different wrongs and different rights,
Different streets and short time friends,
Hi’s,Good Bye’s and shaking hands,
Just another loss and just another gain,
This is transit only, take the fast track lane.
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Last Call
Time is running out,
Settled silence now gets loud,
This is your last call.
Overdone patience,
Tired of hesitations,
This is your last call.
No way to go on,
All illusions are long gone,
This is your last call.
Frequent lies to quit,
All the things you never did,
This is your last call.
Your.
Fading Colours
Once I took pictures
of people and places,
Catching the moment
and witness the traces,
Making a story
out of our past,
Plead fading colours
to stay and to last.
Once I took pictures
of good times and laughter,
Remind me of sunshine
in rainy days after,
Remind me of warmth
when days have gone cold,
Remind me of youth
when we became old.
But all these pictures
of lovers and friends,
Remind me of things
that slipped through my hands,
Remind me of all
I’ve already lost,
And so, my album
with pictures is closed.
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Unsaid
I saw him the other day,
Met his eyes and looked away,
I am fine and how are you?
Always busy – I am too,
Told some news, a nod, a smile,
And the time stopped for a while.
...Still the same familiar ease...
...smiling sad, I had to cease...
...said "I’m sorry"... shook his hand...
...dared no hug...I could not stand...
...said good bye...then turned and went...
...shoulders straight...I left him...and...
...all the words I never said...
...keep on running in my head...
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Mr. Right
You’re right, I’m always talking,
You’re right, I can’t stop laughing,
You’re right, I work all day,
And don’t care what you say,
You’re right, I should’nt this and that,
You’re right, I want more than I get,
You’re right, I’m never content,
I’m cheating when you’re absent,
And I am moody probably,
You’re right I just don’t wanna see,
You’re right, you know me better,
You ask me whats the matter?
No, I will not stop to shout,
Till you know what this is about,
You’re wrong, you wont improve me,
I don’t want you to move me,
You’re wrong, I never tried,
To be perfect and I lied,
My orgasms were all fakes,
You’re wrong about all that it takes,
You’re wrong, down to the core,
And I don’t need you anymore.
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Close
You got so close
You saw the lies
In my eyes
And both of us knew
Little was true.
You got so close
You heard my heart
You were part
Of every beat
Sharing its heat.
You got so close
You felt my skin
Way too thin
And one single touch
Had been too much.
You got so close
You left me bare
Just cold air
And memory's haze
Filling your place.
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Gate 8
(to Marcus)
Watching people come and go,
Acting in their private show,
Touching me while passing by,
Ev’ry smile a perfect lie.
No one knows and I dont care,
I have nothing to declare,
Cross the line, I leave alone,
Carry it all on my own.
So again, I fly away,
Waitung for my price to pay.
And remember
That the next emergency exit
May be behind you...
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Something
There was something in his eyes,
Just the way he did not hide,
Vivid sparks that caught the light,
Just amused about the whys.
There was something in his voice,
Just the rage he used to show,
Deeper bitterness below,
Just the way he left no choice.
There was something in his walk,
Just the way he did not humble,
Confident he would not stumble,
Just the fact that he cared nought.
There was something in his heart,
Just the silence he could stand,
But a restless searching and
All his dreams remained to guard.
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Dear Sunny
Usually I do not write
Things like this, I never tried,
For the first time I dont know
What to say and how to show.
Many words is not my style
Let me say, I like your smile
I dont think I should like you,
Unfortunately I do.
I'm not sure now how to to deal
Just ignore the way I feel?
I try hard without success,
You already know, I guess.
Anyhow, it doesnt matter
Seeing you made me feel better
Honestly, I dont regret
Things I did and words I said.
Usually I do not write
Things like this, I never tried,
For the first time I dont know
What these lines should say or show.
Yours
S.
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